one time i thought that to be skinny i'd have to weight under 45 kg. but now i've discovered that way to live, to eat, to be HEALTY. and i love it.
HEALTY FOR LIFE.
HW: 60 kg.
CW: 51,5 kg.
H: 159 cm.
BUT THIS IS MY LIFE. MUSIC, NOTHING ELSE.
- i always leave beacuse anyone gives me a reason to stay.
- in reality, you won't die, you just want to be saved.
- what can you do, when your good isn't good, enough?
- MILEYC, DDLOVATO, SELENAG, TAYLORS, JONAS, GLEE.
BREAKFAST: coffee + 200ml skimmed low fat milk + whole grain cereals 40g = 244 kcal. - yellow plum + green apple = 106 kcal. LUNCH: whole wheal rice 80g with rosemary, pepper, nutmeg and saffron + baby carrots 150g + 1 peach = 417 kcal. - low fat chocolate and vanilla Ice cream = 154 cream. - 1 kiwi = 50 kcal. DINNER: 2 baked eggs + 235h spinach + whole grain bread 55g = 320 kcal. SUPPLEMENTS: potassium and magnesium = 7 kcal. SPORT: 70 minutes on bike = I don’t know, I hope at least 250! TOTAL: 1298 kcal ate - 250 kcal burned = 1048 kcal.
I’m happy about this day, because after breakfast a was really bored, so my father ask me to go cycling and we went for about 80-90 minutes, but I count less because we stopped sometimes. Anyway, I am very scared. Scared because tomorrow I have to weight me. Scared because I won’t seeing another time the same number. Scared because everytime I’ve tried to get under 50 kg and everytime I’ve failed. But for tomorrow I just need to se 50, something (hoping at least 50,5..).. I’ afraid. I started diet because I want to be 48kg for agoust but I think my weight didn’t change. What to do if it doesn’t work? Continue to try or “enjoy” my body? I don’t know. I really don’t know what to do.
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lunch: omelette made by 4 egg whites + 300g tomatoes + 100g cottage cheese + 200g spinach + 55g whole weal bread! yummi!
doing 1 hour on stepper 4 times a week have not worked. it toned me and made my thighst bigger. that is what i have to do when i burn all the fat. but not now. now i have to burn all the horrible fat i have in my body. i think it’s no too much, from 5 to 10 pounds; now i am something about 114-115 lbs / 52 kg. my lower weight this year was 51, some weeks ago, but lucky i’ve gained one pounde of muscle, that is not too bad, eineed. from today i will eat really much veggies. before to arrive at 300 kcal for dinner, i ate 200g of meat. 200G. i was wrong: from now i will eat 100-150g and lot of veggies. i’ll control fats, avoiding foods that have mroe than 20% of fat every 100g. from today i will go everyday on gym and do cardio for 1 hour, except sunday and morning, because my parents want to go to the beach every weekend, and even if the don’t, the gym is close, but i promise i will do something in anyway. from now i will eat 6 time in day:
B: 7.30 a.m. (max. 300 kcal)
B: 10 a.m. (max. 100 kcal)
L: 12.30 a.m. (max. 500 kcal)
B: 3.30 p.m (max. 100 kcal)
B: 6 p.m (max. 100 kcal)
D: 7-8.30 p.m. (max. 300 kcal)
(evein if i never go over 1200 kcal, anyway)
today, 23.6.11, i weight 52 kg/114,5 lbs.
i have to lose at least 5 kg/10 lbs.
i don0t know how, i don’t know how much time it will take me, but I WILL DO IT. I’LL BE SKINNY AND HEALTY. ACTUALLY I CAN DO IT.
I eat right. And when I say right, I mean “right.” Trust me. I do cardio. I do strength training. Yoga. Pilates. Insanity. Running. I eat enough. I workout enough. I drink water. And yet, my stomach looks and feels, and I’m pretty sure it IS bigger. It has gotten bigger. I don’t understand. I just want a nice, toned stomach with no stupid lovehandles. I’ve tried everything and I don’t know what else to do. I’m pissed off beyond belief.
it was a bad moment. i cried because i saw me in the mirror and i didn’t see difference from 1 month and half ago. but what could happen if i’d stop? i wouldn’t be better. i wouldn’t feel better. i just have to change my workout. stop stepper, it gets me stressed. from today i will go on cardio and do 1h of walk. not so hard, because i read that doing much time and not very hard is better than low time and much hard. ok, i’ll try. i’m trying.
it doesn’t helped me on losing weight, indeed, i’ve gained more than 2 pounds on muscle, but that’s not what i want. in this moment i don’t need to gain muscle but to lose fat. and workout had not help me.
BREAKFAST: coffee + 200ml low fat milk + 2 whole meal toast + 30g sugar free strawberry marmelade = 245,1 kcal.
BREAKE: 100g strawberries + 100g melon = 60 kcal.
LUNCH: vegetable soup + 100g light baked ham + 55g whole meal bread + 150g onion + 20g feta cheese = 443,5 kcal.
BREAKE: low fat strawberries yogurt + 160g melon + 100g strawberries + green tea = 144 kcal.
DINNER: 100g sole fish + 100g beans + 100g green beans + 100g artichokes’ heart + 300g tomatoes = 273 kcal.
TOTAL: 1166 kcal.
from today i’ll change. i’ll change y diet and the workout. from today i’ll eat really more veggies. from today i will not make an hour on stepper but an hour on tapis roullant. from today if i burn 200 kcal, i eat 200 kcal more than 1200 kcal. from today i will workout after breakfast, from 9.30 to 10.30. i’ll burn fat, becaus eis that what i have to do, no harden (nothing changes on my thights -.-). from tomorrow i will post a photo of me and between a month i’ll post another photo. i’ll be determinate. i can do it.
